Always and Forever

I Cant wait to spend my life with you baby! xxx

ill be gone

ill be gone
ill be gone
ill be gone
soon soon
ill be goneoutta your life
ill be gone
before you can say goodbye
ill be gone
bet you never thought it would happen
but guess what?
ill be gone

she came for me

how do you heal a broken heart?
will i ever heal again?
will i ever love again?
she came into my life like an angel and she left...
she was here one day the next she wasnt
who is she?
where did she come from?
what does she want from me?
can she make me better?
will she make my days happier?
maybe...becasue she came for me...

Grey's Anatomy seasom 7 is finally here!!!

wonder what surprises were gnna have this season?....

I LOVE MY GADGETS: BLACKBERRY TORCH

Finally got the torch its awesome! an i phone and a blackberry put together....upstil now i have no problems takes alittle time getting used to though...its comes wth the new Blackberry 6 operating system.

its awesome everyone should get one!

Restart

It feels strange going around the globe alone without you.

It was meant to be us together exploring new places.

I’m flying solo now and your probably making the same plans with someone else now.

Was meant to be you and me and now our plans are yours and his

Our life and what it was meant to be, or could have been. You have given my space to someone else now and there’s nothing I can do about it.

You say you’ll never fall in love again, hell I know you’ve fallen.

I’m taking it all back to the start and hitting restart.

If you would have waited and given me another chance I’d do things differently.

You said you’d never fall in love again, hell I know you’ve fallen.

Now I’m flying solo and I want to take it back to the start and hit restart

Coz baby I’d do things differently starting off with you.

You took my heart and tore it apart.

You said you’d never fall again but I know you have fallen.

Now I’m hitting restart.

Hurting

Imagine being in love with someone who used to love you not very long ago.... does love really just disappear like that? Is it even possible for someone who you thought would do anything for you suddenly doesn’t love you anymore?

We all make mistakes...big mistakes even but love is above all....there’s a will to change...everything is possible but what’s the point?

What do you do when the one person you turned to when you were hurting is the one hurting you now?

What would you do when everything that made sense had no meaning anymore?

What would you do when the one person who saw you as their world yesterday sees you as nothing today?

What would you do if you lost everything?

What would you do if you were me?

Take my heart its broken anyway

Id rather not have it, its already broken

Id rather not feel once it finally heals

You can keep the peices or throw it away

just so you know you've left me really sore

Your smile takes my breath away, I just want to see you smile

I don’t want anything else in life other than to see you smile


I’m sorry for all the pain and tears I’ve caused you.


I love you and from now on I promise you there will be no more tears.


I just want to see you smile.

PaRiS!!!

Forgive me!

  

I love you, but I can’t help hurting you. Why? What are the inner mechanisms behind such an irrational behaviour?

We’re angry and frustrated with ourselves. By trying to hurt them, we try in fact to hurt ourselves. We think we don’t deserve anything good, so we aim at the good things we have in life and unconsciously try to destroy them.


We expect too much from them. We nurture the secret hope that they can help us, that they can do all the things we are not capable of doing; moreover, that they have to do them, because of the love we invest in them. When they don’t, we feel disappointed and the natural instinct is to make them regret.


They are the ones who have the courage to be honest and tell us the truth, even when it hurts. And even though we know it is the truth, it still hurts and the pain can cause violent reactions.


Yes, we love them dearly but there are things about them that annoy us terribly and we know we’re never going to be able to change them. It’s like living with our own body. Sometimes it is a blessing, other times a nuisance. Sometimes it gives us a lot of satisfaction, other times it drives us mad, but there is not much we can do about it cause it’s ours.


We feel misunderstood. We wish they could make a journey inside our head and see things the way we see them, just because we think it is the right way. We simply can’t understand why they think differently and how they can miss something that seems so simple and obvious to us.


We misunderstand them because we’re not always willing to try to understand them. When we feel tired and tormented, burdened with our own faults and deficiencies, we find it difficult to deal with theirs.


We are influenced by what we see and hear on TV. Violence, melodramatic scenes, pain and suffering, self-destruction – they all can leave marks in our subconscious and develop patterns that make us think and react in a certain way. Sometimes we are tempted to do what our favorite soap opera character would do, even if that means hurting the one we love.


We love them but in the same time we hate them because they know our weaknesses and there’s no way we can hide. The mask we wear in relation with other people is put aside and all the things we usually try to hide come to the surface.


We hurt them to give them comfort later. We all have the inner need to cuddle, to protect the ones we love and we feel we have the right to hurt them for the very reason that we love them so much and we’ll make up for it later.


We trust them and we know deep in our hearts that, no matter what we do, they won’t stop loving us. We feel safe to take our frustrations on them because we think there will be no consequences. We hurt them most of the times because they let us hurt them.

Fly away!

Quick update!

HAvent posted anything in a longgg ass time.....
sooooo whts the update? finished thailand....my sister had an awesome wedding.....
came to switzerland...moved in with my baby :)
drama happened...good times too.....
now having finals....last exam tomorrow...and then DONEZO....

oh got kicked out of our appartment found another but need to sort that out soon...

Cant wait to get home go to the heat enjoy the sun and beach! woot woott

FULLMOON PARTY!!

WILDEST...CRAZIEST F****NG PARTY I BEEN TO

LOCATION: Koh Panghan

****INCASE WE FORGE OUR ROOM NUMBERS****

****TAG ME****

**BUCKET BOMB**

****NO BUCKET NO FUCK****

**STRIP--GET WASTED--GO WILD**

"HOLY SHIT!!! WHERE ARE MY CLOTHES"

(LOVE THE TAN)

PARTAAAYYYYY

6 HOUR DRIVE---ONE NIGHT STAY---PARTY ALL NIGHT N DAY

INSANE IN THE MEMBRANE INSANE IN THE BRAIN

Phuket Vegetarian Festival Part 2

OK SO IT WAS PRETTY DARN DISGUSTING!

YUP! WEIRD PEOPLE!

Phuket Vegetarian Festival

Ever seen someone possessed?? Well last night I witnessed more than 50 people possessed by Chinese Gods during the vegetarian festival in phuket.

"The Phuket Vegetarian Festival is an annual event held during the ninth lunar month of the Chinese calendar. It is believed that the vegetarian festival and its accompanying sacred rituals bestow good fortune upon those who religiously observe this rite. During this time, local residents of Chinese ancestry strictly observe a 10-day vegetarian or vegan diet for the purposes of spiritual cleansing and merit-making. Sacred rituals are performed at various Chinese shrines and temples and aesthetic displays such as walking barefooted over hot coals and ascending ladders with bladed rungs are performed by entranced devotees known as "Ma Song".
Ma Song, or entranced horses, are devotees whom the gods enter during the fest. They manifest supernatural powers and perform self-tortures in order to shift evil from individuals onto themselves, and to bring the community good luck.

10 RULES FOR THE VEGETARIAN FESTIVAL
1. Cleanliness of bodies during the festival
2. Clean kitchen utensils and to use them seperately from other who do not join the festival
3. Wear white during the festival
4. Behave physically and mentally
5. No meat eating
6. No sex
7. No alcoholic drinks
8. People at mourning period should not attend the festival
9. Pragnant ladies should not watch any ritual                                                                                                       10. Ladies with period cant attend
Yesterday I got to see the "chosen ones" possessed  and to be honest i was quite Freaked out and Creeped out. It was like they were in some kind of trance, their head shaking, eyes rolled back, taking large steps and also making sounds like a horse.
People were down on thier knees worshiping them. Over 1000 people watching all in white. It was deffiniatly something to witness.

I will be posting pictures of other days too where the possesed walk on fire and also peirce their bodies with sharp objects like swords through their mouths, etc..

Happiness is a Journey not a Destination

I recently got this as a forward and found it very motivating!

We convince ourselves that life will be better after we get married, have a baby, then another. Then we're frustrated that the kids aren't old enough and we'll be more content when they are.


After that, we're frustrated that we have teenagers to deal with.
We'll certainly be happy when they're out of that stage.


We tell ourselves that our life will be complete when our spouse gets his or her act together, when we get a nicer car, are able to go on a nice vacation, when we retire.

The truth is, there's no better time to be happy than right now. If not now, when? Your life will always be filled with challenges. It's best to admit this to yourself and decide to be happy anyway.


Alfred D. Souza once said, "For a long time it had seemed to me that life was about to begin - real life. But there was always some obstacle in the way, something to be gotten through first, some unfinished business, time still to be served, or a debt to be paid. Then life would begin. At last it dawned on me that these obstacles were my life."

This perspective has helped me to see that there is no way to happiness. Happiness is the way. So, treasure every moment that you have and treasure it more because you shared it with someone special, special enough to spend your time with...and remember that time waits for no one.

So, stop waiting until you finish school, until you go back to school, until you lose ten pounds, until you gain ten pounds, until you have kids, until your kids leave the house, until you start work, until you retire, until you get married, until you get divorced, until Friday night, until Sunday morning, until you get a new car or home, until your car or home is paid off, until spring, until summer, until fall, until winter, until you're off welfare, until the first or fifteenth, until your song comes on, until you've had a drink, until you've sobered up, until you die, until you're born again to decide that there is no better time than right now to be happy.

Happiness is a journey, not a destination.
So work like you don't need money,

Love like you've never been hurt,

And dance like no one's watching.

" Y " Generation

People born between 1925 and 1945....Are called...

The Silent Generation

People born between 1946 and 1964...Are called....

The Baby Boomers

People born between 1965 and 1982...Are called....

Generation X.

People born after 1983...Are called...

Generation Y

But why do we call the last group Generation "Y"?

The Picture Says It All!

Shopping List

Furniture shopping list for the new place in January

Planning to make my room ROUGE et NOIR!

Très Excité